Feels like Home to Me

Before my arrival to Romania, I decided to only come for a month long stint, thinking "What if I sign up for the whole summer and end up hating it". Now, after being here for 3 and half weeks, seeing three different groups of kids come in and out of my life, my heart sinks at the thought of going home.

I have been very blessed to have a family that loves and supports me even when they can't see the reason behind my wacky decisions (i.e. traveling half way around the world to work with an organization that I found on Google, with people i've never met, except for one whom I met two months previous). I know that they miss me from the emails I receive each week rushing me home.

However, as blessed as I know I am, I can't ignore the fact that I could easily leave all that behind to stay here with these kids forever.

I know that, where my life stands as of right now, God's current plan for me here in Romania is not for permanent residence. I know that the Lord has called me to Family and Marriage counseling, for which I need my masters. I know that I need to stay in the States for my time in Seminary. I also know that I have a lot of growing and strengthening I need to experience before I move away for good.

When I picture my life after this summer, I know that I cannot leave here and never return. Whether or not Jesus calls me to move here permanently, I'm not sure. What I am sure of is that my work here is not complete, yet. My time here does not end after next Friday; my time here this summer will be over then, but not forever.

I wish that I had enough time, energy, and words to express to you what I have experienced in my time in Romania, but even if I tried, I could not succeed.

Thanks to all of you who have been praying for the kids, the team, and me while we've been together. Just one more week left. Pray that I give it my all. Pray that the Lord would continue revealing his will for my life. Pray that on Friday HE would comfort my heart, because I know that this "goodbye" is going to be the hardest "goodbye" I have ever given.

I love you guys and hope to see you all so soon; of course after I wake up from my 6 day "catch-up" slumber.